Well, apparently I almost died again.

Man this surgery was brutal. The replacement went fine then the kidneys went to hell and almost killed me. Potassium levels went through the roof and my creatinine (sp) went to 4.5. Which is BAD. I've gone to a kidney doctor for 2.0 level for years, so this was horrible. Basically poison. Down in the 3.0+ now thanks to all the fluids they pumped through me, kind of like the thing they do with cats. Narrowly avoided dialysis. Horrible tasting drinks that made me puke all over my mom/nurse and room, enemas, and other fluids got the bad out.

Coming through it, but I'm so fucking depressed and in pain. Plus they're making me stay in the hospital basically through next week because of all the stuff that has gone wrong. Just had a complete and utter meltdown with my nurse. She's super nice and seems to really care. She told me I need to let go and JUST REST. Stop worrying about doing anything important. Just sit back, watch TV, movies, read and chill. She asked me if I wanted to pray with her. And if this tells you anything about where I'm at right now, I almost took her up on the offer. Seriously, that's huge for me since I turned my back on God 18 years ago when I watched my grandfather die of cancer after having beaten Leukemia 15 years before.

I finally got them to yank the Folley catheter tonight and that alone was a major relief. I couldn't believe the tube i my schwang was that thick. So things should get better, but right now it's rough...really rough.

I suck at typing on this new laptop. Good thing here is I turned my laptop on and BINGO connected to the wi-fi here instantly. So at least U feel somewhat connected to the world again. So for those who have called and left messages or sent text messages, I'll get back to you as soon as I can. Hopefully with the above description You can see why I haven't been answering. I even had my mom tell people not to come around because on Tuesday Stefan, Krista and Lynn were all here and I completely lost my shit then suddenly couldn't breathe. So had to ask them to leave because I was freaking out. So getting back to people should be more consistent.